Conclusion

As some may know these 20 blog entries were for an assignment in my English 150 class. At first I thought that it could just be somewhere to put some random things on and not care at all about them. This was quite contrary to what actually happened, the things that I posted seemed to almost be part of me, sort of like what i put up was a little view into the way I think about things. At the beginning I chose the title, "The Way I Think" at first this was just because it was all that I could think of, but in the end, this blog stayed true to its name. This blog is actually the way that i think about things, everything actually. Doing this blog I have learned more about myself then I every thought possible. I learned how I feel about things, how I handle situations, my time management skills, and many other things. For all of you that read this I think that I might keep doing this blog in hopes to learn more about the person that I am, seeing as it has helped me discover myself. At first I just thought of this as some assignment to add to the old "to do" list. Instead of just some hobby it has become a hobby, something that i look forward to doing. This is a place that i can come and just post whatever i think about. I know that I have no idea who is reading this, nor do i really care who is or who isn't. This has become a place for me to come and just be me, whatever I feel like being at the time, whether it be someone searching for an answer, or a person that is giving advice, or even someone who types whatever I feel about a certain subject. None of the things that I have been matters, the only thing that matter is that I don't stop learning. This blog has shown me how to do just that, to just keep learning.

A Changing World

As I look back at myself, I don't see the same person that I saw four months ago back in Arizona. I see a guy who knows what he wants from life. I see a guy who doesn't need help deciding what to do anymore. I see a guy that has grown from a boy into a man. This adventure of a semester has changed me forever. I no longer look for my parents advice in everything. I no longer look for my friends to help me escape from trouble, instead I take responsibility for the things that I have done. I no longer go through my day in hopes that something good can happen, but instead I make something good happen. I know in past blogs there was always some big profound topic that I have some insight on, bu tin this one I just decided to take a look at myself and see what I have become. The people who say that you change the most when your 18 to 22 are right. I have seen myself grow more in these last four months than I have my entire life. As I look to the future, I can only wonder what it can hold for me. What great adventures I will be able to go on. To me life is just a bunch of stories, and I always liked the old people who had a lot of stories to tell, so i will see if i can be one of those people.

The End in Sight

As the semester comes to an end the excitement of going home becomes even greater. Thoughts of the journey as a whole come together to form a kaleidoscope of memories, new friends, lots of cute girls, leaving family, looking to people for support. As you think about these things remember to think about the biggest thing, which is what am I doing here and why am I here. If you don't know why you are here at college, at your job, with your family, then I think its time to rethink your plan. If college is not right for you, then get a job. If you can't stand your family anymore then move out. If you can't bear another day at your job, then quit, and find another job. No matter what stage in life you are in it's not too late to be happy. Even if you have all the things that you could ever want, if you are not happy then what is the point in staying with what you are doing. The biggest thing for you to do is to be happy, no matter what that is, some people like school, others do not, its not for everyone. At this time it is important for you to look at yourself in the mirror and ask, is this what I want to be, am I happy with the person that is looking back at me. If the answer is no, then I think it's time to change something.

Forgiveness

If someone says something or does something to offend you, how should it be handled. I know that in the church we are told to forgive everyone no matter what. This however is very hard to do because it is your emotions and many times it is felt that whoever offended you deserves the same done to them as they did to you. What if they lie to you or cheat to make you feel bad or anything, when is it alright to not let something go. Again I know that we are instructed to forgive anybody no matter what they do, but sometimes this is just too difficult. Maybe someone can't forgive but all they can do is remember and be bitter about the event that took place. This is not good for you and the one that did it to you. For you it is bad because you use extra energy to be mad about what happened instead of focusing on what is important. It is bad for the person who did it because they might not know that they did it, and if they are anything like me then they would want to know what they did so they can know what not to do anymore. If you read this can you please leave me a comment on what you think because this one is a subject that is really bothering me for some reason, so let me know what you think.

English

My perspective on English has really changed this semester, I came here actually not liking it at all. I thought that the class was pointless and that i didn't need it at all. During this class I learned that English is not dumb or pointless or boring, but instead it is fun i like going to English and I feel as though English is actually my best class. I think this is because my professor did a really good job at showing us how to write and how to look at things in a way that I had never thought of before. I feel as though I have become a much better writer then I was a semester ago, and I feel as though i could get even better in the years to come if I focus on what I have learned this semester. i think that this will be the first English class that i will actually sincerely miss. I have always said that i will miss the class and the people there which are true, but never have i actually thought that i will miss the class itself. This was a class that i could go to and see friends, my professor was great, she made us feel like we were cared about, and this was a class that i knew that no one would judge me in. Instead i knew that i could go to people in the class and i felt like they would help me instead of criticizing me for writing poorly or not having the strongest voice. I will say it once more, this English class will be the class that i will miss the most from this semester.

Finals

A big thing that has been on my mind lately has been finals, how they work, how hard they are, and what I need to study for these said finals. Here at school you go to class all semester to try to do the best you can on all your finals. The down side of these tests is that it is impossible to know what to focus on. People can say to study everything from the semester, but then you spend the last couple of weeks stressing about doing this because you are trying to relearn everything from all your classes. This takes much effort and a lot of the time that is valued so much in college. I think I may have come up with some solutions to this predicament. One way to beat this is to try to find a study partner, if they are in the same class then that is great because then they are worrying about the same things. The big thing about this would be to make sure that you are focusing instead of just talking about whatever comes up. Another way to beat the stress is during the year take good notes, and look over those notes regularly. If you do this then you are actually studying all semester instead of trying to cram everything in at the last minute. Also in this way when it comes to that final studying time then it is more refreshing rather then relearning the material. Another way to beat the final stress is to go see the TA's if they have a review session the that is great, usually they have bee able to look at past tests and they know what you will be tested on. Also they usually have taken the class before so they know what to expect on the final so look to them for advice on what to do. As for myself I am going to do all of these and hey maybe ill do great on all my tests this semester.

Christmas

As the semester is coming to a close the big thing on my mind is going home for Christmas. I think how it will be because I know being in the same old house wont bring the same old feeling. However depressing this is it is still exciting to see my family and to visit the friends I left behind to come here. Here in Utah it is cold and snowy it will be a change to go back to the weather back in Arizona where today on December 7 the temperature is a nice 50 degrees, so no more freezing all the time but it will be nice all day. The biggest thing for me is going to be able to just relax and not have to stress about anything like homework or tests or studying or any of the things that i stress about here. I am lucky that back home my boss let me keep my job so I have the opportunity to go back and earn a couple hundred dollars for next semester because right now I need all the help with money that i can get.The only downside to this year's Christmas is that my grandmother wont be able to make it, but at least i will be able to see her when I go through the temple when i get my mission call. Now all I have to do is make it through finals next week and I will be great.